to need

Estar perdido es necesitar

a Amanda Palmer y su Hallelujah un sábado por la noche.

Un beso, bajo el agua helada,
como si fuese oxígeno.
Un baño que dure horas, para mudar de piel.

Un libro que leer,
que te devuelva la esperanza.
O esa película que te han recomendado
y quizás sea la que tuerza o encamine tu vida.

Un abrazo,
dormir,
tal vez soñar.

Necesitar ser necesitado.

Estar perdido es querer salir de uno mismo, para no volver.
Es querer llorar para expulsar desde al alma a las ideas,
para que no vuelvan.

Y a veces me siento tan perdida que parece que yo sea mar y no náufrago.
Tan perdida que no puedo volver a mi hogar. Que todos se han ido y de donde puse mis pies ya no quedan más que los recuerdos de las pisadas.
Porque yo ya no soy yo,
ni mi casa es ya mi casa
dejadme subir al menos
hasta las altas barandas.
Y aquellos que me hicieron se han deshecho, y me siento parpadeante en mitad de una ciudad abandonada.
Que se me rompe la voz de gritar ante el espejo. Y mi único anhelo es ser parte de un algo que me lleve lejos de mí, y más cerca de otros, sus vidas, sus historias... poder arreglar lo que en mí se rompió y se perdió; poder ser mejor, en cierta manera... desde lejos, desde fuera. Poder ser mejor.

Now I've heard there was a secret chord

That David played, and it pleased the Lord

But you don't really care

for music, do you?

It goes like this

The fourth, the fifth

The minor fall, the major lift

The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah…

Your faith was strong but you needed proof

You saw her bathing on the roof

Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew her

She tied you

To a kitchen chair

She broke your throne,

and she cut your hair

And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
Hallelujah...

There was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah...

Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
It's not a cry you can hear at night
It's not somebody who has seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah…

You say I took the name in vain

I don't even know the name

But if I did, well really, what's it to you?

There's a blaze of light

In every word

It doesn't matter which you heard

The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah…

I did my best, it wasn't much

I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch

I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you

I'll stand before the Lord of Song

With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah…